While We Wait

Jen van der MeerUncategorized

There is a particular hunger loose in the impact investing world right now, the desire to measure everything. There’s a claim to want to understand it, but only when all that we know can be rendered countable, to fix a number to every action so the number can be billed, ranked, optimized. The token is the smallest expression of it. Above the token sits a larger will to instrument the whole of economic life, to leave nothing unread.

To do that you have to build something enormous. A substrate of satellites and data centers and meters laid over the world like a second atmosphere, always logging. Something close to two trillion dollars of it is going up, on the bet that once everything is legible it can be made to pay. The people whose lives are being read become the ground this apparatus stands on. They are not at the console. They are the terrain.

The strange part is that the thing being built does not yet know what it is for. The same careful accounting that tallies every dollar admits it cannot say what a unit of value actually is. The buildout is described as paying back, with a small honest phrase attached: for now. So we are asked to wait. Wait for the volume to arrive, for the payback to clear, for the meaning of all this measurement to resolve into something worth having. Build the instrument first, the argument goes, and the value will follow.

Waiting is not a neutral state, and the interval is not empty. While we wait, work is absorbed and the people who did it are not consulted about what their absorption was worth. While we wait, the commons that trained the models is drawn down and recorded as zero on the ledger. While we wait, the risk of the bet is shifted onto debt and onto the public, so that if the value never resolves the loss has already been shared out among people who were never asked to carry it. The deferral of value into the future is paired with extraction in the present tense. The future is where the payoff is promised. The present is where the cost is taken.

The desire to measure everything presents itself as curiosity. In practice it works as enclosure. To make a thing countable you first decide what about it counts, and that decision rides quietly inside the meter, shaping the world to fit the instrument rather than the instrument to the world. A planet wrapped in satellites is not a planet better understood. It is a planet prepared for capture, its surfaces turned into readings, its people turned into substrate, its worth defined by whoever owns the dashboard.

The honest response to this is not to wait more patiently. It is to ask, now, while the substrate is still going up, who the instrument is for, what its readings make visible and what they are built to keep dark, and who pays during the long interval between the measuring and the meaning. What is at stake while we wait is everything the apparatus has already decided not to count.